For those of you wondering just where in the hell Atlas has gone and why, I feel as if I owe you an explanation. I am well aware that many of my avid followers have expressed concern, disappointment, and have asked numerous questions about my absence. Here is what has happened and why. Ready or not, here I come. This is coming straight from my heart and soul….
Believe it or not… I had the world at my fingertips for quite some time. From excelling in college to exceeding the masses’ expectations online, I managed to build myself somewhat of an empire. For approximately a year and a half I maintained a feverish pace that eventually caught up to me and I needed some sort of escape from it all. I began to fall behind in my studies during my third semester of college after maintaining a 3.61 GPA and needed to find a way to catch up. Unfortunately… I turned to crystal meth and quite frankly it destroyed just about everything that I had striven to perfect and my life fell apart at the seams almost instantaneously.
During this period, my ex-girlfriend and mother of my children came to Utah and her timing couldn’t have been more spot on. She went out of her way to provide me with the support I so desperately needed as my family all but turned their back on me and left me to own devices to weather this ominous storm. Honestly… if it weren’t for her I have absolutely no idea where I would be right now. She went well out of her way to redeem herself from past transgressions and exceeded each and every one of my expectations.
In an effort to escape the meth-monster and put my life back together I decided to move back to Missouri and move on with my life. The remnants left in the wake of devastation were virtually unrecognizable to me and others that know me intimately. As I embarked on my journey to pick up the shattered pieces of my life, I left college and distanced myself from the interwebz in hopes of restoring my life and escaping the abyss in which I had single-handedly tossed myself into. Everyone deserves a second chance and I effectively wiped my slate clean.
This has been one of the most terrifying struggles that I have ever encountered in my entire life… but I have learned so very much along the way and am proud to say that I am on the road to recovery and haven’t touched crystal meth since leaving Utah. I have gained insight as to who my true friends are and regained my grip on reality. I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, whether that reason happens to be kharma, fate, destiny or even the grace of God… I will leave those conclusions to be made by you.
I am NOT writing this looking to ascertain anyone’s pity, mercy, or anything else of the like. I am writing this FOR ME… and also to offer some sort of explanation for those who I feel deserve just that. There are great many more details surrounding this specific topic but they are less than imperative to understand my story. I am writing this because I believe it will have a calming and therapeutic effect to quell my restless soul. To those who have gone well out their way to help maintain my sites run smoothly and to offer me the help that I soooo desperately needed… I simply cannot thank you enough. I am still in the process of piecing my life back together but rest assured that I am well on my way. Much love peeps and know that I have missed you almost as much as you have missed me as you provide me with the sweet escape that I provide for you as well. Thank you for your time and seemingly endless devotion!